Fall Back

I wish someone else could feel it
I wish someone would see
Everything's not okay now
It's suddenly harder to breathe

I can't feel much anymore
I can't do anything worthwhile
I'm living upon a countdown
To what, I can't decide

Much easier to pretend now
Much easier to hide far away
They don't see how much I'm failing
I've grown too embarrassed to say

It doesn't get any better
It doesn't let me move on
Another drink will do it
Numb the chill from inside

I want to say I'm sorry
I want someone to lead me on
Its time to find a purpose
But I'm much too lost to look

Strangled in the silence
Strangled in my mind
I struggle to fight the release
It just gets worse every time

I see me for what I am here
I see things I didn't before
All the lies have been revealed
Experience has taught me well

Losing the will to keep on now
Losing the desire to survive
It's much too hard to push forward
Let go and fall back instead