I DON'T CARE

24 hours a day all i think about is my weight. i truly hate the way i look. know my pain, my struggle for perfection. i am so angry. but not at myself as much as i am with society. i am who i am. when u find out my dirty little secret, your perception of me changes. now i am a sick mess. i starve, i eat, i vomit, eat so many diuretics my kidney's scream..PLEASE STOP! I won't stop, I can't stop. I WILL reach my goal. so to the one's who wanted to be my friend, thought i was nice, pretty, and sweet. this is me. i don't expect you to understand the complexities of my existence. your perception of perfection only reminds me that I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!