R.I.P <\\3

I know you hear this from where you are,
Cause I've been told Heaven's not that far,
I know you see when I cry too,
But I also smile and it's just for you,
I miss you so much and wish you were here,
Never seeing you again, is still my biggest fear,
I miss you so much I can hardly take it,
Without you it's gonna be so hard to make it,
Since you left I dont sleep right,
I mostly wonder around during the night,
Thinking about the love I still have for you,
I said forever, So that's what I'll do,
I'll just have to be strong and make it through,
But there's so many things I wanna ask God,
Maybe you could ask for me?
The first most important one would have to be,
Can you come home back to me?
True feelings I can no longer show,
Why is everyone telling me to let go?
Why is it so hard without you?
Can you ask God what I can do?
I promise to go to Church and to not sin,
I promise to not let evil win,
But I guess God can not,
His just gonna leave me here to rott,
So I guess this is my last goodbye,
Please dont watch now as I cry