What you showed me...................

When i was little you showed me alot
I thought everything i was doing was good
I just wanted you to aprove of me
I just wanted you to love me
But instead you hurt me
You showed me all the wrong things to do
Now your gone and i cant find the truth
Im trying so hard not to be like you
Now here i am im trying to find whats right and wrong
I need so much help
Everyday is a struggle
We lost everything
We have no money or anything
No one knows what we go though
We pretend so life donest seem so bad
But the worst thing is we dont have you
I cant have u in my life
Im working really hard at being better
And knowing the difference
You showed me all bad
You could of saved me
You could of helped me in this so called life
My whole life was bad
And im starting to see the difference
Its hard i just want you here with me
Its not fair
Its not fair when you told me your were gonna be here Forever
Now im always affarid of lossing
Its all a game like what will i loose next
You did alot to me
But most of all im affarid of loosing....