So Scared

Officially...I've gone nuts. but hey you got to live life somehow.
whether you get high or drug every night.
to where your heart was broken and was suppose to be mended just as fast.
the way i remember those beautiful eyes.
the way this is truly more than a memory.
i miss your smile.
i miss your laugh.
i miss the way you'd shake that ass.
this is my pray to you..

i kneel at night with my hands on my bed just hoping you'd be back again.
I'd cry and say I'm sorry for all the things I've done.
I'm sorry that i couldn't change your mind and soul.
it's hard to accept your gone.
but its also hard to think you get your beauty from my pain.
it's hard to think you'd promise you would never leave.
that you'd be right here next to me.
why did you break something so dear.
why did you hurt me.....

i always thought we'd be together forever.
that we were destined to be.
i never thought something like this would break us apart.
i remember when we use to imagine a life together far on that we didn't think we'd go.
I don't know why but I'm just so scared to let go.
I'm not forcing myself to hold on..
I'm just so scared to ever let go.

so as i sit here and pray my eyes cry those painful tears.
i never thought this would come so soon...
cause guess what?
I'm so scared to get over you.