Options

So many emotions
Attached to this strong devotion

So many choices,
I hear the decisions in their voices

"You should do this, you should do that"
It comes down to me when it all falls back

One small life, mine to decide
Whatever I choose, the thoughts will reside

I don't have much time before I have to choose,
So much to gain, but too much to loose

I really don't know what exactly I should do,
I just can't wait until my thoughts are through

Option A holds so much guilt
Ending a life that together we built

Option B gives so much happiness and pain,
Because with every rainbow comes the rain

Option C Shows remorse and regret,
Something once mine, I'll have to forget

These three options running through my head
Keeps me awake at night when I lay in bed

I know that for a fact
Option C I just cant have that

Something so precious in someone else's arms,
Without me to save it from any harm

Then there's option (B) 2,
Thats something I know I shouldn't do

It would stop me from my education
Have to take a very long vacation

I wouldn't be so great as a mom
I couldn't do all the things I've wanted to do all along

Then back to Option A I would feel so bad,
Thinking of the times we maybe could have had

Having something that's a growing part of me
Then gone in an instant and no longer to be

Whatever I choose,
I have something to loose

Only time, until I know what to do...