Me

Things are rushing in my mind
like a word popping one by one
so fast i can't even see one
things are also happening so fast i have to pick quickly
i can't even think about them first
it feels like your in those movies when the person having a bad dream
but you can't wake up
i feel like crying but at the same time i can't i have no time for myself
people are all around me, never leaving me alone
i have a decision to chose between to things
one includes a whole new life style that will change me,
into a depression mode but still be happy
the other will be the same I'm living now but then i will have guilt in the back of my head
just every body's feelings are depending on what i chose, both ways i hurt somebody
but i don't want to do just one i want to live both
i love how i live friends and a family
but some how i still have a family some where else
things are crazy at this point
i just want to go to my room and cry my eyes out
why did i have to be put on the spot
i know somebody out there understands but can they be here to help me get up
and may be wipe the tears from my eyes
so i can clearly see
i want to be in a movie where things will knowingly be OK
why can't my life be that why
I'm different from any other normal person
i have two family's then just one
i have other people that i love the same that aren't even relative to me in any way
i live in a crazy life style
so aren't you glad you ain't me?