Risking My Life

One second I'd be flying, another second I'd be falling
One minute I'd be running, another minute I'd be crawling
You gave me that grin, the one that makes you look sly
But you still don't know that I try so hard not to cry
Sometimes you can look so innocent, but now it's changed
My memories, dreams, and stories about you still remain
The heart I thought you had, was never really there
You only did this to me because you tried not to care
You said you didn't want to hurt me, but you had to let go
I know so many things about you, you don't even know
My body is turning numb, I guess I'm frozen
But out of every guy, it was you I've chosen

I'm running away, I know I need to pull through
My heart is racing, I'm saving myself from you

I saw you today and saw you were the happiest I've ever seen you
Because your finally in love, but it's something I can't do
Meaning I can't handle this, it just burns me inside
I'd tell you I don't care, but then you'd know I just lied
I'd sacrifice my life for you, but I don't think you'd really care
Because as long as I've known you, it was only one time you were there
You never saw my real, sick side, you never saw me cry
You've never heard me scream so loud, but you did hear me lie
I'm tired of these memories, they keep haunting me
I know that I keep retreating from what will never be
I won't stop running, and I never will
It's just like that, you kiss and kill