I dont know how it happened
Or when I lost control.
But the pain and hurt and anger
Is starting to take its toll.
God has forgiven me
But I still cant forgive myself.
I deserve all the pain I feel
I dont want anyones help.
The nights I cry myself to sleep
I never imagined it this way before.
No matter how much I suffer
I still think I deserve more.
I force myself to feel pain
And know I must hurt alone.
Every time I shed a tear
I think, I should have known.
The regret builds up inside
And I feel like Im going to explode
I realize that I made the choice
I knew it would be a lonely road.
Barely a day goes by
When I dont wish I could take it back
Too bad that one bad choice
Is whats keeping me on track.
