He doesn't even know.

I thought that you of all would know
the pain inside that I don't show.
I hide it away so no one can see,
the hurt inside that won't set me free.

Lately it has been a shadow over my
head. It will go away, that's what you
said. But really you have no idea how
I feel. If I told you, you wouldn't believe
it was real.

All my fake smiles are running out,
sometimes I just want to shout...tell
you what's going on in my life..how
every little thing cuts like a knife.

I just don't think you'd understand
the pain I feel when you take my hand...
Knowing everything you say to me
is a lie...trying hard every single second
not to cry.

I know I need to let you go because
we just aren't right, but then my mind
goes back to that one special night...
you told me you loved me and that
you'd be there, I knew they were lies,
but I didn't care.

All I ever wanted from you was love,
and I let myself get taken advantage of.
I'm still hanging on and I don't know why..
everything we have is just a big lie.

I am starting to finally break down, I really
just need to get out of this town. Leave anything
and everything in the past, find that
one special guy, and make things last..