Running From Myself

Inside I feel so lonely,
Like my options have run dry.
I have given up on hoping,
Never again will I cry.

I will shut my self away,
Hide behind my pride.
Never will I give in.
A part of me has died.

I wonder how I hate.
What it is in me.
Why do I dislike myself?
What don't I want people to see?

I run from insecurity,
I wont stay and fight.
I hate where I'm going,
I'll burn out all my light.

Hopeless is as it will be.
Never see him with the likes of me.
I do what I can, but with what price?
It always hurts. I always slice.

At last I print my words to paper,
Vowing to not let it happen once more.
In the end I'll give up,
I'll reopen my lasting soar.

You tower in my thoughts.
You talk as if you care.
Do you know your effect on me...
Just pretend I'm never there.

Homeward bound, I'm headed off,
To a place I love but hate to be.
I regret to inform you, I haven't changed,
Cutting's still a part of me.