I'm on the edge of your cliff
wondering what it would be like to die and
every time i close my eyes
i can see your brown eyes cry and
i try to lean forward but
that memory is holding me back
like the same way you're dying
i just want to take away that
i'm holding the knife in my hand
over my wrist it hangs
like a judgmentally weighty ton
hanging by inadequate chains
then i start to think back to all the blood you'd lossed
and i remembered how you'd cry at night in pain
and i silently made a vow to myself
to never feel the same
i'm driving our car over the bridge
you're asleep in the next seat
i'll never tell you how we died
just know it wasn't bloody but neat
i never want you to feel the pain you felt when we were alive
and that's why i made sure you were happy when we died
as the water rushes in
a tear falls from my eye
as you struggle to escape
in your eyes i can read the word "why?"
and the drowning pain of death puts
me to sleep never to breathe again
i think of how i love you so much
and how that love will never end
no matter where we are after this
it's only the start
because i will always search for you
the wantings of my heart
dedicated to: the pain in my heart when we're apart
and the way i feel when you're unreal
or the nights unslept and how i wept
and wishing you were aware and still cared
