Lose

Why is it
That i keep on trying
To make something work
When i know it cant?

I love him
And yet why
Why am I so distant?

How can this be
Love?
How can this pain
Make the words above?

Silly me to think
That i could make it work
When all my feelings for the other man
Begin to lurk.

I know he sees
I know he knows
With every move
My love for that man shows.

I love him too
So much

I'm so lost
And confused
Trying to believe
His love isn't something i can lose.