Why cant i?!!!

The kitchen screams get out, the food screams do you want to be fat, my reflection whispers, you know you deserve the blade, god, I feel so stupid why cant I simply place the food inside my mouth, I pretend im so strong, but inside im truly weak, no Ive got to be stronger, ive got to gain control, ive got to eat, im guna shut out the whispers im guna shut out the screams that haunt me, and finally try to please me for a change and finally eat.