One Mistake

I'm miserable and aching
with only myself to blame.
Even though I loved the boy
I allowed myself to stray.
I've fallen for someone who loves me not
and the other fell for me.
The situation seem so unreal
I pray it's just a dream
but I feel myself grow helpless
in this painful tug of war.
My heart is slowly weakened
as it's twisted back and forth.
Emotions are running wild.
Some I can't quite place.
I feel the heart that beats for them
but I just can't match the face.
Now I'm fighting tears with smiles
that hurt so much to fake.
My life is crashing around me
from none but one mistake.
I gave away so quickly again.
Way to open, way to soon
and now my heart is ripped in halves
as every piece gets used.