Letter of the unborn child...

Dear mom,

i know that letting me go is not an easy decision
maybe the helpless situation forced you to take me away
i know that you're not ready to take me
maybe its hard for you to let me live

I'm just sad by the thought that i will not see the light
i Will not be able to touch your hair in real life
i will not be able to know the name that you'll give me
i will not be able to see your face when daddy bring me to thee

but it's okay mommy, i understand that you're in a hurry
i cost you so much problems that it will be difficult for you to bear them
your world turned into three-sixty
it even made your future become weary

I'm sorry for the pain and trouble i brought you
sorry if i destroyed the future that you and my grandparents want to have to
I'm sorry if your nine months with me is a cursed
sorry if i cant do anything but stay and be a burst

i have no hard feelings for you
in fact i already forgiven you
i know the pain i cost you
I'm sorry mommy i didn't mean to

tonight I'll be with god
I'll be with you no matter what
I'll pray for you and my future siblings
hope that you'll live as a happy being

then I'll wait for you my mom
i know someday we'll be together
when you already reached heaven
I'll show every love that i have for you that i kept for years that we're apart...

till then...

-me