Watching myself die

Tonight my thoughts travel in my mind
the ones that make me cry
they keep replaying my mistakes
and show the people who hate me
i watched as family turned to be enemies
and my closest friends just left
i watched myself cry and pick up the knife
and cut away the sorrow
i could see people around me
just watching
not caring
the people just watched and i cut to my last breath
some laughed
and some just wanted me to go faster
i sat on the floor with tears in my eyes
and wishing i could have bin better
i watched the blood leave my Bobby
and i slowly started to fall
the people just watched and stared
as i closed my eyes and with my one last breath
i whispered i was sorry
i watched myself fall into my own death
wishing i could have stopped it
the world around me was crashing down
the blood the pain the sadness...
it was all finely gone
and i finely made people happy