Who is this girl?

She is tired
She is Scared
She is afraid to show her real feelings and who she is.
The pain the thoughts the anger build up in side her.
She cuts and cuts blood gushing gushing from her white blossom skin.
The blood is a sign of her happiness for a period of the moment she sits happy as can be she is actually smiling!
She thinks to herself
Why do i do this to myself for?
Does it hurt the people who love me?
Wait it can't because no one does I'm alone no one talks to me or understands me
My mom is sick
My sister dun give a Crap about me
Her boyfriend is an ass***
The only place for me is where the blood falls and makes me happy!
When the blood falls I'm happy why am i happy?
It helps the girl
She is not depressed
She is Not angry and hurt when she cuts shes just herself
Thats why she does it to herself she can't stop its addiction to stop the pain and the depression.
She hates when
People think of her as
The girl who cuts herself
The girl who is lonely
The girl who Dresses in black
The girl who is silent
The girl with no emotions
Just that wearied silent girl
Why people think of me like that girl? they don't know me! She thinks and thinks but her thoughts cause her pain she cuts and cuts she is once happy again?
The girl is just like you
She is not
The girl who is lonely
The girl Who dresses in black
The girl who is silent
The girl with no emotions
She is Much more then that once you get to know that girl!
She is happy she is happy when she cuts and the pain and depression is gone lost in her thoughts she is done the last time i ever saw that girl was with the blood around her and she was just laying. there where has the girl gone?
Is the girl happy?