My Own Worst Enemy

I hate myself
I'm not going to lie
i hate how i cant change
no matter how hard i try
i live on temporary solutions
that always blow up in my face
I Live my life without a purpose
making me only a disgrace
i am not proud
i do not even know the word pride
i know i am worthless
From the core of my inside
i play my games
i live my lies
hiding my pain
more then anyone tries
i try to stay unnoticed
almost hiding behind a mask;
a mask of laughter, happiness, and kindness
but it is becoming quite the task
it is draining my soul
and i barely had one to begin
but i really have no other choice, besides fighting my monsters
who live deep beneath my skin.