Then Why Am I All Alive

Far beneath this world... lies this life which is all alone far beneath this life... there is a heart which may beat only once but is unheard by others
its all whats written makes me go more far.... am lying down a Cold water which may or may not end... but am finding peace in it.... i may be full of thoughts,,, I may have less words to speak... but inside me lives a life which is all empty....

theres a empty side in me... which makes me scared to do deep... deep in me lies another life... which never was mine .. was made for me by others,,,

accepted it all i cud do... where else i think this life will take me...
tears are there but are afraid too Come down.. they are all hidden behind all those painful walls in my heart... my eyes become wet when they see that these walls are now not tough enough too hold more. all i can do is...just lie in the cold water and cry alone..

"loved make love got hearted by ma love... i don't want you love now in this world because may be i wont get it.. but let me die in your arms so that i will say.. I didn't get your love.. but may i get the heaven in the last breath..""

why so far am i standing now... that till now i don't find ma life... I'm all alive but without a soul which gives me hope ... I'm all breathing but without hope that gives me way.. I'm all awake but that blood chases me all away.. I'm all moving but that hearts hurt don't leave me alone.. I'm all here...but no one sees me no one looks no one feels...
den why am i all alive

~Najat~