Fallen Hero

You were my mum
you kicked me when I was down
you bashed me around
you made me cry
made me question why

you were supposed to love me
care for me
teach me
reach out to me

instead you hated me
despised me
taught me nothing
except to go through life

defeated
sad
angry
mad

It's been 20 years mummy
to this very day
and still I am scarred
in so many ways

I wanted to tell you
what you did to me
will always be there
but you will not see

I want to just cry
I want to scream loud
I want you to know
that you should be proud

despite how you treated me
how you left with no care
I have achieved so much
you didn't need to be there

My daddy's a soldier
in so many ways
I'm daddy's little girl
for the rest of my days

So go away mommy
I don't need you here
I'm just fine without you
I don't live in fear

But I'll always remember
what you did to me
It'll be in my head
for eternity

I wish I could forget
the pain, the blood, the tears
I was only five mum
its been many years

I guess its a lesson
to be strong
to believe in yourself
when things go wrong

Although that is true
I still feel bad
I feel so empty
I'm always sad

When will this feeling go away?
or all through my life will it stay?

you are supposed to be my mum
a hero in my eyes
but you have fallen
and you I despise