You Should Be Able To Tell

At lunch, next to you, can't you tell by the blank stare in my eyes?
Do you believe me when I tell you all these lies?
You don't even notice, that I am not okay
And I don't know if you realize that you flirt with her everyday
It's starting to kill me, and I thought you were a good guy
Though I remember before, you were the first to make me cry
I don't want to get hurt again, I don't want to let the tears fall
I don't want to stand in the rain, remembering the things I saw

I tell my friends the problem, and they tell me not to frown
Whenever I say my life is perfect, everything comes crashing down
I can hear the silent violin playing in my head
I want to run away, and forget every lie you said
You tell me you love me so much, but I don't know if it's true
I'm scared to say that you're so important to me, I'm afraid to lose you
My worst fear, is losing the person I love the most out of all
And I'd hate to know that you were the one that would let me fall

You were my first kiss, my only real love, and I'd hate for it to disappear
And I'm afraid that you'll become my worst fear
"Has no one told you, she's not breathing?"
I've got dreams at night that you said you were leaving
Shaking, but full of love, I pray to God you'll be there for me
I've got the hope, and it's set in my heart, and I won't let it free
Please retrieve yourself from being caught under the spell
I just wish you cared enough to be able to tell

That I'm Not Okay