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My lungs are closing
as i gasp for air
slowly getting dizzy
I'm not going to die am i?
people running all around me
talking without any sound
close my eyes
and pray to god
"please don't let me die
i have so much to do still
i promise i will do better
just please don't let me die"
darkness starts to surround me
i feel so cold so helpless
i must have messed up
for god not to help me
a bright cloud is in the distance
i start walking toward it
wondering whats going on
just about there and i hear a familiar voice
i listen again carefully
its my mom
telling me she needs me
tears fall down my cheek
i yell "mom I'm right here
I'm not going anywhere"
she acts like she doesn't hear me
and keeps talking
i yell, "god please let me go
let me go be with my mom i need her!"
I'm back in the hospital
my eyes flutter open
mom gasps and hugs me
tears falling
i close my eyes
"thank you god"
i promise myself
ill do better
i wont hurt myself again
"i love you mom"