I Hold The Pain

I try with all the might I have
I want to be somebody in your life
With every ounce of kindness
I try to make you feel special

I feel misused
Mistreated and maybe mistaken
Almost as if I am being abused

I try I honestly do
Through every harsh joke
Through every moment your feelings take your best side
Every hit on the head
And every knife to the heart
I hold the pain in

Hurt
Annoyed
Tired
Why must I feel these ways?