Please

Disappointed in myself
disappointed with my life
i want to scream. run. hide. just leave
just a shell of a being
the feelings i had were true
now i have to face this reality. this is my life
so alone. stuck in my own head
walking, talking, smiling. but inside I'm heart broken. feels like i am dead
even a person like myself needs a hand
i don't let others in. so i keep these feelings bottled in
pushed aside. that's what i am
my chest aches so bad
hard to catch my breath
trying to sit still, but my legs are shaking
no turning back
get it right. thats what i must do
if i could cry. i would sob
stepped on
losing control
please......cut me one break
i need a hand
i need a friend
someone out there
please. try to understand
take this weight off my chest
tell me this horrible feeling will subside
i am alone
this is me SCREAMING for help
can anyone hear
self inflicted pain is all i have
sleeves down. gloves on
falling apart. no focus
shaking, hurting, trying to breathe
what went wrong?
so confused
please. someone
give me a hand
i am hurting. can't breathe