Suicide

Broken inside
Lost without a trace
Looking in the mirror
Not knowing my own face
Feels like faith is gone
No one cares no more
Life lost meaning
When you walked out the door
Left behind by love
Left behind by life
My hands are shaking in despair
As I search the drawer for a knife
My mind is clouded
My heart is dead
Why did life killed my love
Couldn't it had taken me instead
I am ready die
I am ready to leave
To spread my wings and fly
Dead I want to receive
Feel relieved as I sink a glass of pills
I feel quite glad as my stomach fills
My hands aren't shaking
As I draw a picture with a twist
A blood red river
Flowing from my wrist
Darkness falls around me
Or maybe I'm going blind
I never felt this peace
Dead is soft and kind
Fall a sleep
Never to wake again
Thank you dead for your help
Of releasing me from my pain...