Never.

I finally felt better,
not depressed like my past,
but i guess happiness for me,
was something that was never going to last,

I finally found my dream course,
& my dad was willing to pay,
i thought my life was getting better,
but it never turns out that way,

now what do i have?,
nothing as i always do,
it normally gets better,
but this time i am not going to make it through,

My boyfriend talks to me like crap,
like he thinks me owns me,
my friends only use me,
& everyone thinks i don't see.

My mum never understands,
& didn't care as again i fell,
but this time i am going to lose myself,
this isn't going to turn out well,

I want my life to end,
because i cause myself more pain,
because being with these people,
is going to drive me insane.