Afraid of nothing

I feel like I can't breathe...
It's been a year
I still feel the same
Isn't it wired ?
There is something inside me
Killing me
This thing is nothing
You may think I am crazy...
But no...
I am not...
I hate nothing
I hate doing nothing
This silence is taking me into the darkness
Where there is nothing but fear and loneliness
I don't want to be there
I want to be in the light
I want to be surrounded by love and care
And to have something rather than nothing