I'm not in the right frame of mind
to write how I feel...

No, you're wrong, you can't be right
No way will I give up this fight...

Tear off these illusions, rid me of these dreams
Let me see just how it is, instead of how it seems...

Excise these emotions, cut away the cares
so that they don't rule my life, seal these gaping...

Roaming through a wasteland, swimming through...
Reaching for a helping hand, that just isn't there...

Conflicting feelings
Self loathing and self hate...

Cold fingers close around my heart,
stopping it mid-beat...

Each and every time i hear it
Leaves another painful slit...

How taunting is this day, which is meant for love
but to me another sign that I'm hated above...

I feel the reaper's sweet caress drift around my...
And feel that now would be the time that i should...

My heart has betrayed me yet again
By drawing me down this way...

The beauteous view laid out before
The sight could make a dead heart soar...