Excise these emotions, cut away the cares
so that they don't rule my life, seal these gaping tears
Hollow out my heart, straighten out my thoughts
Free me from this pit, in which it is I'm caught
I don't rule myself anymore, that's done by my heart
But it's passion fueled decisions, are tearing me apart
I need to put aside my pain, my anger and desire
Seal it all away inside, quench my raging fire
Hear me from myself, so that I won't see
All this selfishness, that lives inside of me
Protect me from my hate, my self-loathing and doubt
Cut away my feelings, hold them close, then cast them out
And once this empty shell is left, take me and rebuild
Leaving out these feelings, with which it is I'm filled
And when i am rebuilt, when what's there is new
Then it is that maybe, I can be truly there for you
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I'm so sorry darling. Sorry that i can't properly put aside my own pain and desire, and be everything you need me to be right now. I hate myself for it, and wish i could. I know you need me to be there, and I'll be there for everything that I can. I just wish with all my heart i could be everything you needed.
