I am woman
i am holder of life...

I spent 6 weeks and a half
trying to picture me as a mom...

It's 7:58 am
i'm still awak...

I look in the mirror somedays
hating the reflection I see...

When I flip on the televison screen
I stare at the news...

I love hands
like I love people...

Sometimes I curse
this ever wondering mind...

My future child
I worry you will be like your mother...

Please forgive me
for my heart still beats in rhythm with yours...

I am chasing sleep
Finding that it eludes me...

I'm writing this letter to you before I leave
I gave it to you to read after I left...

You and I
just friends...