I always mess up
Why can't I stop?

Why am I smiling on the outside
When I'm dying on the inside?

When I don't eat I am in control
When I don't eat I am safe

Just because I'm breathing
That doesn't mean I'm living

I would rather be skinny and dead
Then fat and alive

My life as a movie would make millions
Too bad I wouldn't have to lie once

What do you do when you've got a problem,
But you can't talk to anyone about it?
How do you deal with it?

I'm home, in bed,
And feeling much better.
I just had to leave,
And come back home.

Decisions made today
Will be forever lost
In a sea of fear
Tomorrow.

Even if it hurts in the beginning
It's worth it in the end.