I just feel so fxckin stupid
i dont know how i could be so dumb
i need to wrap my heart up
before its too late and i get hurt.

He said why are you so troubled
i said theres so much about me
you just dont know
he said why wont you let me love you
i said im not someone you want to love.

Eating late doesnt give you nightmares each night
and the absence of sun doesnt strip away the light from ur life
its not the wind that grabbed your shoulder and threw you to the ground
no its not the rain that brings all the clouds.

No matter how hard i try,
i cant let anyone get close to me
emotionally.
i can only replace my love
with my body.
physically
in a failed attempt to find happiness
instantly.
and yeah it works, but only
momentarily.

Sometimes i just wanna fly away
just get up and run really, really far away
hold the tears back and fly
then get to my destination and cry
and breathe and leave
my past behind.

All these years ive been licking my wounds,
but they keep seeping deeper and deeper
every step i take
leads to heart break after heart break
what did i do to deserve the pain that ive endured?
i can only bear so much.

Maybe its a silent sin
but whatever it is i cant give in
i cant bring myself to forgive a man
that hurt me more than i've ever been.

Prove to me your true
or i'll swear your built off lies
if you cant show me whats real,
then what are you trying to hide?

I dont think you know the damaged you have caused. you were suppose to save my heart not rip it even more apart. all the words you spoke were just talk laced with lies. all dressed up pretty in the sweetest disguise.

I've been searching for someone to fill this empty hole in my heart
but the harder i try the more i fall apart
right nowi just want to apologize for all i've put you through
i cant let myself fall in love with you.