ive had a bad life from the way i see it...my father what never there... he told my mom to kill me...and when i tried to even talk to him he turned away...mom found another guy and married him...never got along till this day dont and they have been together for 10 years...ive falling in love and then he just up and left,,no goodbyes...nothing...
stepdad beating me and my mom...always thingking about sucide...but never went through with it...ive tried so many time so but never suseeded...but its kinda getting better...found a guy that says he would do anything for me and that im his world...but when i write my emotions come out and thats the only way i know how to get them out...even through i havent been though that much it may seem...i have in my own way and when i write its a different life for me...i just want to llet ppl see my problems.there is always something that can get better but when ur with them constintly and never get away it seems like ur traped.i cant stand it...ive been clean for about a year and a half now and im proud of myself. but thing is im getting out of writing...even tho life is crap....i can still live it and go on...i no that i have ppl that love me and weather or not im here they will always love me. i dont need jerk offsss...