It's cold, I'm turning pale and still coughing blood...
I didn't know cancer turns you into a Vampire...
36hours and still counting.

The only bad/good thing about death is saying"Goodbye" since you've said it so often then this isn't a bad thing ay all, Goodbye forever...

Smile! I'm falling! You pushed me over the edge and I could see the joy you got in your eyes! That's right, you didn't push me. Someone else pushed me for you.
Now I'm waiting to hear the sound of my head hitting the ground!

As the lights are going out and these eyes close while this blood drips... I guess we both get what we want. You want me to die and I want death. I guess death heard your wish

This time is the last time, death is done playing tag and may finally win. So as my body grows cold and numb and my breath slowly leaves me, I will fade into the nothing which originally I was.

I'll count the minute as I rip out these stitches and continue to drink just to see how much I can bleed before I'm done. I give it an hour.

Again I wake to find that I've destroyed what I care for so now with a bottle of jack and 151 I'll destroy what no longer needs to be, that which never was.

So this is the true meaning of being a ghost?
I guess I already knew this feeling since it doesn't feel and different than living...

Still I'm nothing, never was and never will be anything. Guess I was never needed after all. So now I'll take my leave. No need on saying goodbye I guess because like me it to will be nothing and will mean nothing

There's a smile on my face, tears in my eyes and blood from my mouth and multiple other wounds but the one bleeding the most is internal and death is near. I can hear it singing as it gets colder on this floor..