I had so many trust issues,
relying on no one...

How does it feel without me?
Are you constantly avoiding the thought of me...

I miss the look in your eyes
that told me everything would be just fine...

I try to grasp the very first time
you told me nothing would ever stop your love...

I was so cold in such a dark and icy world,
I never knew such numbness could exist within me...

I never wanted to disappoint you
but I am aware that I made more mistakes...

Do you remember the first time my tiny hand
wrapped around your finger...

It feels like we haven't spoken for years,
as I am hopelessly trying to believe...

I'm shutting down,
becoming numb...

I remember going back to your house for the first...
I was terrified and shaking...

I apologise if I act a little cold sometimes,
but I am remaining cautiously guarded...

Shattered by waking up from restless dreams
after the night shift of her private life...