It's been days since I've seen you,
Hours since I've talked to you,
Minutes since I last heard your name,
But yet it has been only a matter of seconds,
Since I've thought of you.

When I'm older
& my little girl asks me
who my first love was,
I don't want to have to pull out
the old photo album
I want to be able to
point across the room & say
"He's sitting right over there."

I am so over you.
It doesn't matter if my insides still burn when she's with you,
Or if I still cry at night.

& Here we go again,
A girl loving a guy
That would a b a n d o n
Her in a second &
Ignoring a boy that
Would give her his
Every heartbeat.

I used to think I had it "good",
But I totally misunderstood..
I had it "perfect".

I'm falling now because
I'm holding on to things,
That are no longer there.

I wish I could just crack
my head open, take out my brain
and surgically remove all of the
thoughts I ever had of you.

I argue with him like he's my brother,
I flirt with him like the friend that he is,
But I love him like he's the only one for me.

Everyday people ask me,
"Are you two going out?"
And you don't realize how painful
It is to reply,
"No, we're just friends.."

If you see me walking with someone else, it's not because I love them, it's because you're not there to walk beside me. If I fall in love with someone else, it's not because I wanted to.. It's because you weren't there to catch me.