My blade fights me still
she manipulates, she won...

I thought i could confide in her
I thought that was why i was there...

My anxiety stabs deep within my stomach.
I fall to my knees and blood lets to the floor...

Sadness has overcome me
it is my life, it fills my heart...

The secrets of my past bang at my heart fighting...
i want to cry but my tears refuse to come...

The fiery walls that that encircle my soul
there so scalding hot...

Plop plop
in to the water...

My confidence flew in like an owl after it's prey...
I felt so good, so alive...

I often imagine that love is like a cascading...
one that's continuously flowing and never ending...

Where are you my true love?
I've searched within watery caves and under heavy...

*** i wrote this poem about 3 years ago, i still...
i see you, you see directly through me...

When i was a child i used to sit in the darkness...
and stare at the stars gleaming through the trees...