Wen i say "im fine" and smile, for once i want some 2 relize i really mean "help me"

Her pain leads 2 tears...
his pain leads 2 anger.
Her tears leads 2 her deprestion...
his anger leads 2 loosing control.
Her deprestion leads 2 self-inflicting pain...
his loosing control leads to hurting others.
Which is really worse?

Im scared of being alone and i hate that about myself!! so 2 prove 2 myself i can handle it i pushed every1 i love away wen i needed them the most...and now im livivg a nightmare all alone

Im loved 4 wat im not and its slowly killing me

Its 2 much 4 her-standing on the clifs edge she shuts her eyes tight...
takes 1 step forward and ends it all that night...

Burried in my blankets-eyes shut so tight...
make it go away-at least for the night...

Boy: im mad at you not responding to me
Boy: fine, i got 2 go
Boy signed off
Girl: wait! im srry i was eating uh please call me!
Girl: im srry
Girl: i love you...

~a real ending of an IMing coversation between to friends~

Love is such a strong word yet it is often passed around like nothing

There was a day were i thought u loved me...
but like every other day, it passed...

Me: (smileing) Im fine. Its not that big of a deal
Girl: (wit an angry face stomps foot) Dont lie 2 me like that! I know ur hurting!

~she really is a good friend~