I'm just afraid
that i'll never find a way to let you go
and that i'll always be in love with you
and that you'll soon find a way to let me go
and that you'll soon fall out of love with me.

I can honoustly say
I have never felt
so bad
so screwed up
so afraid
so lost
so head over heals in love
without you

I'm so stuck in between

I want to kiss you so badly
that I get goosebumps everytime I think of the moments we shared
But then again
I get goosebumps everytime I think of how horrible I felt during those days

I'm so stuck in between.

I feel so horrible without you
that 'having you' is the thing I want the most
and 'kissing you' is the only thing on my mind
But then again, when I had you
'having you' was the thing I hated the most
and 'kissing you' didn't seem so tempting

I want you so badly ;
and I hate the fact that
'having you' isn't that great at all
and that I will feel just as miserable
when I have you
than when I don't.

I blame myself for so many things
but I blame myself the most
for letting go of your hand and for walking away
when I still had the chance to grab it tight
and never let it go.

I wish I could cry my pain away
cause if that were the case
I would be the happiest girl on earth.

I'm starting to blame myself
for all those things you're responsable of
I'm starting to blame myself
for all the things that went wrong
I'm starting to blame myself
for being the way I am
for being me.

What I hate the most
is knowing you're trully ' it ' for me
and that you're absolutely the opposite of an assh*le
Oow.. how I wish you were an assh*le
then I would have a reason to forget all about you
but now
I don't.

I didn't just lose my boy
I lost the bestest friend I've ever had
and you just can't imagine how that feels like.