Why do I constantly feel the need to be strong
That crooked smile, that forced body language...

Maybe it's the years
or the thought...

A long day at work
Coming home excited...

I thought 2019 would be lit
Leaving all the bullsh*t behind...

As you lay
in bed next to me...

Everyday has been nothing but a challenge
no matter what I do or say...

I will never forget
when December was my favorite month...

How many times
do I have to go through this...

To think I was happy again
to think I found the one...

And when you finally get what you asked for
you then realize...

That pain in your heart
that you try to hide...

Today was the day
The day I met his parents...