I'm the best at making the worst decisions! :(

I'm living not to lose you.. while your dying to forget me...

You push people away... when you need them the most
i tell people i need them and i'm not ok... and they still walk away.
you want someone to notice your upset without saying anything
i want someone to stay when i tell them...
I Am Not Ok

The days when i go to school feeling confident, and Alive...
Those are the days when people tear me down inside...

-from my poem "And I Let You"-

And i forget sometimes that there are people like me...

(they is always someone who knows what your going through... you just have to be lucky enough to have met them)

And i can't stop this ache!!!

I let you tear me apart
I'm sitting here with a broken heart

It lies on the floor
Cold
Motionless
Beat less
It's dead

Through my eye lashs and down my cheek
From my eye a tear did leak
It rolled across my lips, and over my chin
Down to my chest it lands on my breast
And stopped at my heart
The place the tear came from the very start.

Confused, it's this place that confines me!
This place that hurts me,
I hate this place!

I quit
I give up...
Thats my "thing" isn't it?