It hurts so much to look at you and know I will never be a part of that smile again…

No.
I Don’t understand.

But you get angry when I ask questions, so I’ll keep my mouth shut.

I don’t think I could bear your anger
on top of my own hate for myself.

I don’t love you.

in fact, i don’t even really like you.

and if i think about you for too long at a time, you actualy repulse me.

sorry.

and even that’s a lie.

It hurts so much to look at you and know I will never be a part of that smile again...

It hurts so much to look at you and know I will never be a part of that smile again...

I dont turn off sad songs...
I dont turn off our songs...
I can't.
I'd feel like I was betraying all the good memories of us,
lies, though they may have been...

I would have given you anything and you didn't even care....

I worked so hard to be openw ith you, but you never appretiated it...

Sometimes when I'm alone, I pretend you there,
I hold my own hand, trace patterns like you used to
but still i just feel all themore helpless...

I can look,
and yeah thats fun...
but it's strange...
i really dont want to touch unless im loking at you...