Sweet relief found in the sharpness of a razor
sweet relief found in the ozzing blood

Maybe I should go further away
Maybe if I sit really still my soul will leave my body
And fly away to be with the stars I could never quite reach

It was not fxcking funny
You're just in fxcking senseitive

When you say I love you
You mean it as a friend
When I say it
I mean it as...
well...
I mean it differently

Tonight I will make a bracelet of blood around my wrist

She finnaly stopped asking me why I was sad or deppressed or whatever

I think she finnaly stopped caring

My eyes are sore from crying
my wrist is sore from cutting
myself is sore from living

Can she once just not fight, or scream?
For once dont cause my heart to race?
For once not cause my body to jump even though I expect the harsh yelled words?
For once?

"I say we close our eyes.
And jump"
Lincoln Heights

And I'm getting to that place....
That place where I can hold my tears in...
And never let them seep through.....
And even though it may be bad.....
It feels so good.