Maybe, just maybe, if I stay in my imagination, if I create my own fantasy .. I can pretend nothing is wrong and that we're the way we use to be ..

Yuu promise me forever, but forever never last. Yuu promised me yud be there, but yur out having a blast. Yuu promise me you'll love me, that I was the one .. Yet while im waiting by myself, yur out there having fun .

& i only need yuu to tell me it's okay ...
even if everything's wrong, and even if everything's not okay. if yuu tell me it's okay than ill believe yuu ..

Maybe somewhere within the depts of my heart ... i really believed that yuu would have kept trying. maybe somewhere deep down, i didn't want to accept that yur feelings had changed...

I wanted yuu to be there when I fall, stand by my side through it all. i wanted yuu to wipe the tears I cried, to always just be by my side.. I didn't wanna end up as "friends" .. was that to hard to understand?

Because even though all i want is for you to be happy, i can't stop crying. my heart really hurts ..

So why do yuu get to have those butterflies feeling again and i get numb heart ? im not jealous of yur ability to fall in love, im hurt that it's not with me anymore ..

& even thou i knew from the beginning that id probaly get hurt, i wanted to believe in yuu, to open my heart up again. now here I am with tears down my cheeks watching yuu smile with someone else by yur side

Because even i had hopes of walking down the isle one day. i wanted to be the bribe instead of being the maid of honor. how can i when all love ever done is betray me? how can i fall in love again ..

Lying to yourself, telling yourself continuously that he was happy without you by his side ... when it actually happened, it shudn't have hurt right? so i dont know why, before i even knew it, i was already crying ..