I can have a manicure or chew my nails,
leave myself dirty or obsessively clean...

My mind flutters through the world,
Intently picturing bliss...

For JAY :)
I am drained of power and also of hope...

Fight back; say your words, cut into my skin,
Seek revenge over my truth, but you can never win...

Sometimes I wonder if not for 4 words,
I would have been alright...

I’m losing grip,
I’m slipping away...

It started as a little thing,
a tiny glimmer of sadness in my life...

Things seemed so easy,
Loving you was only fun...

I'm as tired as i'll ever be, but I still can't...
Insomnia dragged me down just a little bit too...

They can beat monsters, villans and wipe out...
They can save the world so easily, in so little...

What am i wearing
what am i trying to be...

What is the point of living forever
When deep in your heart you want to die...