Oh. My. Lord. I just spilt my coffee.... O.o

I should have stayed home, i should have talked to you and maybe you wouldnt be where you are..... </3 :'(

You actually had me believing that you were different.... i have to stop trusting people! </3

Passed the point of no return,
passed the point of cutting,
now im left here to burn
in my own living hell.

Why can't everone let me go? why? all everyone is doing is just making it harder for me to let go... to end.

Why can't you see?
That your still apart of me
Through the smiles
and the laughs
Why can't you sense my tears?
You know all my fears.
I just don't understand.
Why are you not holding my hand?

I miss you!
I Love you!
I hate you!
I hurt you!
I save you!
I bite you!
I kill you!
but you killed me first.

The owl sits perched on his window,
Showing there's soon to be a widow.
Chills run through his body
Knowing that nobody
Will come to his aid
As his debts are not paid
And for the owl, now on his shoulder.

The nights get longer,
When the air gets colder,
The way his touch has no warmth.
She knows the end is near.

Whispering her blessing,
asking him to spare her,
as he is gently caressing
her soft, golden shoulder