I am trying not to love
i am trying not to care...

So cold without his touch
so lost without his words...

I wonder what it is you see?
How is it you see the beauty inside of me...

I sit here staring at the paper
wondering what to write...

Im new at this thing they call "love"
I don't know how to tell u all of how I feel...

June 30 2013
Entry three...

Save me
Take the pain away...

Plz rip out my heart
Turn me to stone...

Bitter lies
Pain filled tears I cry...

Pain eats at my heart
With every thought becoming a confusing one...

I sit here and wonder why i hesitate ?
Why when i have everything i have wanted offerd to...

You have freed my soul
you made me see my beauty...