Does it run in your blood, to betray the ones you love?

I almost walked out the door that day,
without saying goodbye,
i lost your love in that way,
so much i had to say.

but i never told you,
how i really felt,
i never showed you,
the real myself.

Stiched up heart,
forgotten soul,
i bleed and bleed,
theres red on my sleeve

Everynight i cry,
i remember the pain you put me through,
this blood that is running through these veins,
they're soar,
they want to fly away.

Sadness fills my eyes,
everytime you pass me by,
i'll never get over you,
i'll never be able to put you in the past.
You broke my heart once,
afraid you'll break it again,
but I cant stop loving you,
I can't stop hurting me for you.

Blood is in my dreams,
Blood is on the floor,
Everywhere i go..i see you,
Soon you'll fade away.

I wanna leave this hell hole,
i wanna jump off this planet,
i wanna see my end,
i wanna fly away soon.

Feels bad being alone,
crying by yourself,
living in a broken home.

Heard from a friend..which she heard from a song...

The truth is pain..that is how i feel,
my life is a lie..that has no shield,
running from me..so afraid to live,
this is my life..a shame it really is.

All these thoughts are never resting,
my whole life i feel like ive been in a test,
never the best.