No love for myself

Blood is in my dreams,
Blood is on the floor,
Everywhere i go..i see you,
Soon you'll fade away.

I wanna leave this hell hole,
i wanna jump off this planet,
i wanna see my end,
i wanna fly away soon.

Feels bad being alone,
crying by yourself,
living in a broken home.

Heard from a friend..which she heard from a song...

The truth is pain..that is how i feel,
my life is a lie..that has no shield,
running from me..so afraid to live,
this is my life..a shame it really is.

All these thoughts are never resting,
my whole life i feel like ive been in a test,
never the best.

I almost walked out the door that day,
without saying goodbye,
i lost your love in that way,
so much i had to say.

but i never told you,
how i really felt,
i never showed you,
the real myself.

Does it run in your blood, to betray the ones you love?

The media is the seduction of human desire, if you try to sell me the truth
then I know you're a liar.

I count the days that we have spent apart
I've got a bad liver and a broken heart
Theres no salvation in the comfort of you
I finally realized your tearing me apart